Ugh.

It's been way too hot lately and on top of that I've been sick... Not fun. So for the past few days I've been hiding in my room... Thank God for basement bedrooms! (Which I finally have all to myself) Twenty years old and I've got my own room for the first time. Kind of weird.

It's kind of late right now but I haven't been able to sleep, even in the basement at midnight it's still too hot. So I've been watching videos on Youtube... 

My sister showed me this video and I like it a lot. :P

Normally I'm not the type for pop teen girl music but there's just something about this...

I also really love the Hillywood show. I wouldn't really recommend all of it but they do some great parodies. Especially their first Twilight parody and their Hunger Games one as well.

I've never seen the Hunger Games and I have no desire to but my brother has and he said that she did this almost too well.

In some ways I wish I could be more like Hillary from the Hillywood Show. She's so confident and smooth. I've never been that way. The last time I went up on stage to sing I failed pretty badly. I can know the song like the back of my hand but as soon as I get up in front of people my body betrays me. I start shaking and I forget the words and my voice cracks.... I can't even imagine dancing. :P That would be a million times worse. I'd look like an idiot dancing like that.

Oh well... I long long ago kissed my dream of becoming an actress goodbye. :P It's very frustrating to have an extrovert mentality with an introverts body. If I were completely one or the other things would be so much simpler.

I wonder how many people are like that. Wanting to get up and do things in front of people, or even just be able to go to a big party and talk to random strangers without getting tongue tied and sounding like a moron. Well, I guess when I put it that way tons of people are probably like that. 

But since I can't be like that, and believe me I've tried many many times, I'm going to give this blog another go. :P Nice thing about the internet is you don't have to talk to people face to face...

I'm going to work on having a more confident voice. Maybe if I do it enough here I'll be able to do it more in real life. Problem is... If I start acting confident and assertive now people will think there's something wrong with me. They've known me for about 8-9 years now. 

What do you think? Have you tried to change your image?

Fictional Friends

Sometimes between exhaustion, headaches, back aches, and other things I just need some time to recover.

Today was one of those days... 

But usually if I can just get away and not talk to anyone for a while I'll feel better. Fictional characters are some of my best friends during these times. :) Right now I'm revisiting my Ouran friends. :)

It's such a weird show... I know a lot of people wouldn't like it.

I have so favorite book and movie characters... And it's kind of sad that I don't have as much time for them anymore.

But I am meeting some new characters! Benny recently introduced me to Pokemon. Pikachu may just be the most adorable thing in the whole world!

Yeah... I'm kind of loving that show... And the game. Right now I'm playing Pokemon Yellow which means that I got Pikachu to start out and he follows me around. :D

The Voice

WARNING

This post will be a full blown youtube spasms post so please feel free to disregard it entirely. 

So for those of you who haven't seen the show there are four coaches; Adam Levine, Cee Lo Green, Christina Aguilera, and Blake Shelton.

In the first part of the series there are a series of blind auditions. Singers get up and perform while the coaches are sitting in chairs with their backs to them. That way the performers are purely judged on their voice instead of how they dress, look, or act.

Each coach gets twelve slots to fill and then as soon as those twelve team members are chosen they instantly go to the battle rounds and whittle it down to six members.

Team Adam:

Tony Lucca

Katrina Parker

Mathai

Pip

Karla Davis

Kim Yarbrough

Team Cee Lo:

Juliet Simms

Jamar Rogers

Cheesa

James Massone

Erin Martin

Tony Vincent

Team Christina:

Chris Mann

Lindsey Pavao

Ashley De La Rosa

Jesse Campbell

Moses Stone

Sera Hill

Team Blake:

Jermaine Paul

Erin Willet

Raelynn

Jordis Unga

Charlotte Sometimes

Naia  Kete

Of those my favorites were Tony Lucca, Mathai, Juliet Simms, Tony Vincent, Lindsey Pavao,  Ashley De La Rosa, Jamar Rogers, and Raelynn.

Now for a TON of Youtube videos! :D :D :D

Out of the top 4 he was one of the ones I wanted to win. :P


This was my favorite of his performances :D

I could seriously watch this video a million times.......... I kind of love her.

In both these videos I definitely think she sounds better than the originals.

Both of them were amazing... I am glad Tony won though. The bit where he sings "Oooo girl...."






He was SO good......




She was my favorite... I wanted her to win so badly! Everything about this performance just gives me goosebumps.


And I don't even like this song...



So yeah... I'm looking forward to the next season! :P

Mmmm

Hi there.........

So yeah. So much for the two posts a week resolution. :P I've been so busy between work and Benny and various other things that I haven't had much of a chance to clean my room let alone post on my blog. (I did clean my room a couple days ago, thus the posting.)

But tonight as I was walking home from choir I was realizing that it wasn't quite dark yet... It was dusky, but there was definitely still daylight. That got me thinking about seasons and the different things they bring. I know that's generic but still, I felt like doing a post about it. :)

It's so interesting to me how in the winter it gets dark at seven o'clock and then in the summer it stays light out till what, nine or ten? In the winter it's hard to imagine that and in the summer it just seems to weird to think about it being dark that early.

Then there's the wonderful things each season brings, specifically smells. Spring just smells so good this year! There's the sweet scent of daphne, cherry blossoms, and lilacs mixed with rain and grass and growing. I'd forgotten how good it smelled.

Summer has a lovely smell too. A warm soft scent made of dirt, new mowed grass and the fresh morning air early on in the morning. 

Summer does have some smells that aren't so nice... Mainly melting asphalt but the goods out weigh the bads. :)

Fall is one of my favorites with it's spicy smells of falling leaves, smoke, and the crisp feeling of the air.

Currently I'm still loving the spring smells and looking forward to summer ones! Take some time to stop and smell the flowers. :)

Spring...?

I guess not... I've got a cold and snow mixed with hail was coming down heavily yesterday. Oh well, it's only the middle of March. Plenty of warm weather ahead.

But mixed in with the nasty weather and cold we had  couple of really beautiful days! Walking down to the transit center was thoroughly enjoyable and there was one glorious day where I didn't even wear a coat!



The last few days it's been switching from rain to snow to hail to sunshine back to rain. I have to say I'm getting a little tired of winter clothes...



But Spring really is beginning to make an appearance in some areas. On my walk to the bus stop there is this  one house that is painted a really bright blue. Right up against it a cherry tree is blossoming and the contrast between the pink of the cherry blossoms and the blue of the house is lovely.

There's a pussy willow right next to the bus stop and one block away there is a carpet of deep purple crocuses. I can feel myself getting all excited inside.



Daphne, one of my favorite flowers is blooming everywhere. It smells so beautiful...

Eighties Tuesday

The Help

So we're already two and a half months into 2012. So far it has been a pretty good year for me. My job has been going particularly well. I've also been reading a whole lot more.

I finally got around to reading and watching The Help. Both the book and the movie were amazing! 

 I could totally relate to the heroine "Skeeter".

There were several hilarious moments that made me laugh out loud. Like the chocolate pie... ;D

And Celia... Her story made me cry.

 

The colors and the clothes in the movie were fun. The excessive amount of Coke drinking made me thirsty.......

 

 

Minny, the one in the middle was so funny! :D

 It also had its sad moments... I came very close to crying several times.

The book was amazing as well, I read it on the way to work and back every day. It was so hard to set it down. 

I want to own both of them, definitely a re-read AND a re-watch for me.

Images found via Weheartit

Giveaway!

The Anonymous Antagonist has finally reached 100 followers! *cheers*

Which means that he's got a pretty awesome giveaway going on right now with some super cool prizes! :)

http://wilsonftw.blogspot.com/2012/02/100-follower-giveaway.html

And here's my answer to his question: "What is your favorite aspect of blogging?"

Well, I know that I'm not the best about blogging regularly... But I think that's because I have a blog not to get followers or reach a ton of people. What I like about blogging is just having a place to write about what I'm thinking about or post things that I find interesting. And then the very small crowd of people who actually care about what I have to say can read it if they want to. :) I'm not sure if this is a good answer or not, but I hope you know what I mean. :P

Anyways, have an awesome day and all that!

♥Shay

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Meet my now official boyfriend!

He's kinda crazy.......

And I like him a lot. :D

Well...

So much for working on my story. I put on Clannad After Story to try and get my inspiration up and it inspired me alright. But to do a blog post instead. But I guess blogging is writing to so I won't feel too guilty about it.

I'm sure I've posted about Clannad before...
But...

It is honestly one of the most beautiful movies/tv shows I have ever seen. It's not a big fantasy (There is a tiny bit of fantasy) or an epic action series with a big bad guy to defeat. It's got a little comedy and quite a bit of drama. But it's perfectly balanced with enough light hearted randomness that makes it a lot of fun to watch.

It's really just about life. Friendships, relationships, family, good times and bad times.

Each episode is so laid back it's very relaxing to watch. The characters are over the top anime as usual but they're pretty believable. It makes me think of my group of friends. It kind of voices the way that I feel about them and the time we spend together. I've tried several times to do a post about my friends but I've never really been able to say exactly what I mean.

Maybe I read too much into it. Maybe the others don't see it the way I do. But my group of friends are some of the most important people in the world to me. The effect we have on each other can either make us or break us. I know that sounds cliche or silly but it's true. At least for me I know.

I'm still not entirely sure how to say it. I think the best way for me to say it is exactly how they've changed me. A few years ago I was afraid to do anything. I didn't want to go to parties or talk to people or do anything really. I would literally start shaking when I felt like I was getting outside of my comfort zone.

Then I got to know some people who literally changed my life. Sorry if that sounds dramatic. :P They give me confidence and make me feel good about myself again.

This is just a garbled mess of thoughts and feelings that I feel like I need to get out. What I'm trying to say is I love my group dearly. I would do anything for them. Some of the happiest memories of my life have been made in the past year with these people. When they are happy I'm happy and when they're sad I'm sad. I've only been really truly angry a few times in my life and almost every time it was because someone was hurting one of them.

Can we please be friends always? I have felt the deep hurt that comes from losing people that you care about. The pain that brings you to your knees. It's almost unbelievable that something could hurt that badly. It's almost as bad when people just drift apart and eventually stop talking altogether.

Ok, enough random garbling. Point is, I love you guys and I wouldn't be the person I am without you.

I'm not sure if I should post this or not... It's very random and silly. But... this is something that I've been thinking about lately and I know if I just delete it I'll end up trying to re-write the whole thing.

So.... here goes. Please don't take anything the wrong way.

♥~Shay

Pinterest

Well, I made myself a goal to finish the rough draft by the middle of next month. Right now I'm stalling by watching Leverage, browsing Pinterest, and posting... :P

I wouldn't say I'm addicted to Pinterest yet but I am spending a bit more time one it than I should. :P

Here's a favorite pin from each of my boards. :P :)

Color

Fashion

Scenery

Fantastical

Heart

Decorating

Movie Love

Words/LOL

Ideas :D

Just Plain Gorgeous

Things That Move Me

Lists #

Sci Fi

Food... I Guess...

Art

Yeah... There's a lot... But now I've hopefully got that out of my system. I'm gonna try some writing now. Wish me luck!

♥ Shay

Gah.....

On my way home from work last night the snow was falling thickly. I remarked to Forrest who was with me that I wished we could have less rain in the winter and more snow.

It's just so beautiful!

Well I take it back. Last night our power went out, which it almost NEVER does. And when it does t usually comes back on in a matter of minutes.

This time the power decided to come back on at 4:30 in the morning waking me up. I got up feeling relieved only to step in a very cold, very large puddle of water that ran all the way from the door on one side of the basement to our room leaving everything soaked in it's wake. We spent the last 45 minutes cleaning that up...

So anyways... Yes, the snow is quite beautiful. But I think it's more trouble than it's worth. Just in general, I'm totally ready for Spring!!!

Eighties Tuesday

I really love this song. It has such an interesting sound and style to it.

Also, since I've watched the Fruit's Basket series "The Year of the Cat" has a sort of lonely wistful meaning for me which makes the song even more lovely.

Sleeplessness

Well hello world...

This seems to be a theme with me. Once again midnight, lying in bed, unable to sleep. Sometimes I really just can't turn my brain off.

So I promised myself that I would start writing at least 300 words of my story every day this year. Not happening yet... If only it was easier to translate feelings and emotions into words. I bought myself a couple nice clean journals the other day. One is to collect character sketches, descriptions, and ideas. The other is to write down my story  once it's been finished. Hopefully that will inspire me to get working.

Part of the problem us that I am working though. Which I am very grateful for by the way. (Have I mentioned I really love my job?)

Sometimes I feel just like I'm swimming in circles. Always having the same problems and needs and always promising myself the same thing. What I really need to do is to stop procrastinating and thinking so much and just get to work.

One thing I gave been thinking about a lot lately though is people and our dependence on each other.  I'm thinking about doing a full post on it sometime. We'll see.

Anyhow here goes yet again another sleep attempt.

Another post hopefully upcoming-Sherlock Holmes Game of Shadows movie review.

Love and Hugs!

What

My Song

Still sick… it kind of sucks, I'm almost never sick for this long. But I *have* to be better by tomorrow because I'm working.

I know I've mentioned this before but I just have to say it again.

I LOVE NICKEL CREEK

I can go for months without listening to them once but then I just get this random craving and I have to go and listen to every single one of their songs several times.

Chris Thile is right up there with Thom Yorke in my opinion. Actually it was listening to Radiohead that made me want to look Nickel Creek up again. They once did a cover of Radiohead's Morning Bell and it's pretty awesome.

I am a huge music person. I would shrivel up and die if I didn't have music. Music speaks to my heart and soul and mind. That sounds corny but I really can't think of a way to explain what good music does to me.

I have my favorites-Radiohead, Wilco, Modest Mouse, Muse, A Fine Frenzy, Keane, Arcade Fire, Blue October- and many many others. And I love them all. They all have their own special meanings, favorite lines, best songs.

Radiohead is probably my top favorite followed closely by Muse. But Nickel Creek is my band. I love every one of their songs  so much. They all mean things to me and the beauty of them satisfies my musical cravings. No other band brings tears to my eyes with their music the way they do.

The title of my blog is from my favorite song, Hanging By a Thread. This song is my song.

I'm going to give up rambling and trying to put my confused feelings into words now and just enjoy the music.

Much love,
Shay

New Years Resolutions

Today is the first Monday of the new year. A great day to get up, take charge, and conquer the world right?
Wrong!
Apparently it's a great day to wake up with a killer headache and an upset stomach...

Oh well... I've been consoling myself with no food, lots of coffee and Advil, Christmas letters, and The Apocalypse War. I may even get some writing done today!

So it's 2012 now. It didn't really hit me till I was sitting in Church listening to the sermon. New Years has never really meant that much to me till now. But you know what? It's a clean slate! A new year is like a blank sheet of paper and now I need to decide what to write on it.

I'm twenty, I have a job, fantastic friends, a great Church, and my family. So what are my goals for this year? What am I going to do with myself? I hardly even thought about making resolutions till yesterday but then I came up with a whole bunch.

Basically it comes down to this. Last year was pretty good. Actually the best year I've ever had. So, now I'm going to make this year the best I've ever had! This may sound silly or cliche but I'm going to be a better person this year.

Anyways, here are my 2012 resolutions.

1. Start a savings account with a certain percentage of every paycheck orig into it. Now that I've finally got a job I can really start saving for my future.

2. Read my Bible every day. This was my only resolution last year and I've kept it. I'm in the middle of Jeremiah now.

3. No regrets. I may not be able to keep this one completely but I know I can do better.

4. Be healthier. Drink more water specifically...

5. Finish my book. And start research on the next one I have planned.

I think that's it for now... But it's a good start. :-)

Happy New Years everyone!